Willy and his unforgettable Angel

I hate myself for not being strong enough.

This morning, I spent almost an hour to search for the newspaper she wanted.  I was so weak.  If I am strong enough, I should leave the newspaper at her frontdesk, and then I left.  However, I just wanted to see her for one more time.  Hence, after struggling for a moment, I called her extension.  When she came out, I was such a chicken that I dared not look into her eyes.  I just left her the newspaper and then escaped.  Yes, escaped.  I dared not stay there for one more second.  I just didn’t want her notice that how much I miss her.

It’s her decision that I am the non-important element in her eternity with GOD and him.  So what’s the point to be a humble and tinny rubbish on her way.

Perhaps this should be the last time I did this silly act.  Don’t try to find any more excuse to see her.  It’s you miss her only, but she doesn’t really care, when comparing with GOD and him.

Let go, please, let go!