Willy and his unforgettable Angel

Haha… she ”do whole-hearted wish that I will treat myself well and take good rest!

Miss me a lot! ”

Took away my heart and wish me healthy, hahaha……..  Well, how nice it will be to be a healthy living death.  Perhaps this is the best way out for a non-Christian.  Without the noble status, this should be the second best for a “mud” people like me.  The first choice is hell.

I know that she won’t like me do this, I have started losing my control.  I couldn’t help cursing him and even GOD.

After trying every effort, finally, she gave me up.  For eternal life, for being the noble Christian, for giving him the chance he deserved?  I dare not guess.  The only thing I know is … she chose to gave me up.  Throw me in the eternal darkness.

Or perhaps I should not say that.  Without her, I was already living in a grey mist.  I didn’t know what is love.  I didn’t know what I live for.  Knowing her made me find my priority of life.  Knowing her drag me out of the colourless world. 

Now, I am just returning to where I originally belong …. or maybe a bit worse.

After struggling for all these years, finally, I have to realize that I am nothing more but still a mud people.  A non-Christian mud people.  Why?  What the point for me to keep trying hard to be a good one, or at least a normal person?

In front of GOD, I know I am so tinny to show my anger.  In fact, GOD, she and nobody cares.  I am such a loser.  I dare not destroy anthing…since it will make her unhappy.  I don’t even dare destroy myself for the same reason.  I love her that much that I still don’t want to upset her even now.  The only thing I can do is waiting.  Wait for the day of hell comes.

It will be fun to lying in the deep shit of hell and watching her and him to enjoy the wrapping of GOD’s praise.  At least, at that moment, I realise that hell is no longer horrible for me.